Thanks for popping in. After a busy morning at work, it was down time this afternoon, colouring time, prep time for tomorrow morning’s SHAC. I have enjoyed this one. You know you are enjoying it when you want to do it again, but differently.
So tomorrow we tackle the frame. I kept it very simple and colourful. The picture is so busy, I thought it best to go vanilla on the outside! Well, colourful vanilla.
I can’t be a perfectionist. I have to go with the process. If I get hooked up in the net of “not perfect” , then that old git Notgoodinuff and his side kick Itscrap will take over – and the game is lost.
I can’t worry about judges either. There are no judges in the SHAC-Shack. We decided that a long time ago, and it is very important. For you, for me, for all of us. Let me speak frankly. My lifelong insecurity was always yearning for approval. And when it came it felt great. And when it didn’t I was bereft. So my happiness and sense of worth hinged on external validation, on other peoples’ opinions of me and what I made or did. Even if I thought it was ok, I couldn’t rest easy until I got a pat on the back from somebody else.
At the ripe old age of 61, I am finally learning to do things for myself and not for approval, but because I think it would be cool.
I have let go, and it feels right. Finally, I am not at the mercy of others. Do you get me?