Thanks for popping in.
I’m glad you’re here, because I have just had a moment of clarity,
if you’ll forgive the pun, and it’s important to write it down,
before I slip back into the chaos that is my life this week.
I have just figured out why I actually (usually) enjoy doing art so much more nowadays than I used to.
It’s because (mostly) I love my work,
also, I have (mostly) managed to evict those two pesky gits,
Wurka and Hollick,
who were living rent-free in my head for way too many years;
but, even more importantly, I accept my job gratefully.
I see people all around me, doing gutty, thankless jobs,
and I know I am very lucky.
Remember the young blokes in the pouring rain clambering
up the scaffolding that I spoke about some time ago?
That’s what I’m talking about.
Ironically, when there are no time constraints, when there is no deadline pressure, ideas pour out of me like out of a tap.
The moment I have to deliver,
or more importantly, the moment I think I have to deliver,
the ideas-well starts to run dry.
I have decided that the operative words here are HAVE TO.
The minute I think I HAVE TO do something,
the dynamics change, and my attitude does too.
I am going to do some laundry.
I have to do some laundry.
I am going to make a birthday card for my Mum.
I have to make a birthday card for my Mum.
I am going to do the prep for the TV Shows on Sunday.
I have to do the prep for the TV Shows on Sunday.
This week, pressure levels and deadlines have been mounting.
It’s Wednesday and the last three days have been pants.
No mojo Jo.
And the more I panicked about what I HAD TO do,
the less effective I became.
The less effective I became, the more I panicked.
What a downhill spiral I got caught up in!
I’m no psychologist, but I’m guessing the more you worry about the outcome, the less you enjoy/focus on the process?
Obviously I’ve got a lot to do, and there are deadlines.
So I can’t just prance around the house in my jimjams,
go with the flow and do what I fancy whenever.
(I think that’s called Retirement;
something to look forward to and relish)
One day, I will be happy to live life the Wu Wei way,
but more of that another day…
Maybe I should look at the way I approach the tasks in my head before I begin, if you know what I mean.
This week I have been nothing short of a victim!
Poor me – got so much on my plate.
Poor me – never have any time to myself.
Poor me – all work no play.
Poor me – haven’t even got time to read a book.
bla bla bla.
So instead of enjoying the week,
planning and getting ready for the Telly,
I’ve turned it into a complete chore,
a HAVE TO DO.
The bad news is it’s already Wednesday.
The good news is it’s only Wednesday.
So after I have finished chatting my way through this mini
I will stop for the evening,
read a non work-related book,
enjoy Dave and a log fire.
Then tomorrow I will start the week again.
With a less harried head and
an attitude of gratitude.
The comforting thing about writing this blog is I know there will be loads of you who totally get me,
who completely know what I mean.
Which means we are not alone.
love and hugs,